Late Night Fiction A blog of much perspicaciousness

8Apr/100

Facebook really pisses me off

This, the most popular website in the world behind Google, gets on my nerves. It's the typical story of greed. Look! All these people spend hours a day in our little virtual world! It's control. People have this shit on their phones. On their phones. One of my friend gets a little ching every time she gets a Facebook notification on her Blackberry. What does she do? Pause the rest of the world around her to-- check her Facebook.

I feel like there's a point where being a part of someone's life turns into controlling them. I like Google. I would sell my soul to Google with how much I trust them; "Don't be evil." -- says it all. And I feel like they live by that. Facebook lives by money. Fuck money. Facebook, as a whole, you're an idiot. You don't have a motto like Google-- why? Because when the next opportunity to rake in some cash comes, you want to make sure you don't have any of those pesky morals that will get in your way. No, no. You need your green.

And sure, Google has all the information about every search I've made and what places and directions I've looked for on their maps and even all the websites I've created that host rants like this. But if anything, they have more information about who I really am as a person than Facebook will ever have. Google has my interests, hobbies, places I see, things I see-- like a good friend. Facebook has my social interactions; my social interactions that consist solely of bullshitting and people-pleasing. Google is like my best guy friend and Facebook is the controlling girlfriend that I can never escape. Google is there whenever I need it and doesn't bitch when I go off to do my own thing. Facebook stalks me all around the web and tries to keep me in check.

"Facebook requires all users [...]" -- yeah, exactly.

Fuck you, Facebook.

13Jan/100

A Different Cycle

I'm learning when situations, ideas, environments are positive or negative for me. Everything in the world around me divides up a little better and forms according to my specifications more and more each day. This is good.

I'm also trying to stick with the "don't fixate" idea I've come up with. See, when you fixate on one idea, you become lost in it. And it seems that there is no one thing that is worth completely fixating on, due to the life-cycle of a thought: it starts as a simple abstract concept, possibly formed as a result of other ideas. The amount of information it is composed of is proportional to the thought's tipping point-- the point at which all the information that makes up that thought are not enough to expand that thought anymore; at this point, your mind can only speculate. And although it may provide some sense of comfort, nothing positive or solid will come out of speculation.

So I know these things. And I wake up every morning and go for a drive and try to remember to let everything flow through me so that I don't fixate on a single idea, and consequently live in that moment, know that nothing dies, etc. etc. But some days those thoughts become a contradiction themselves because I think I have to fixate on them to make them work and then I do and then shit falls through, plainly.

I think it's happened today. But it doesn't feel counter-productive this time; I reached that truly elated stage which I haven't had in at least a week, and then I had to deal with people so I started to whole people-cycle again, though I feel like I fought it slightly more than usual. I'm out of cigarettes but haven't bought more, I went to a job interview and laughed as I headed out because the guy was the typical salesperson-- and he was the one interviewing me; and then I had some more pseudo-frustration with other people. And at this point everything started falling down; the walls I had built, once again crumbled.

But this time was different. I've found comfort in knowing that not everything I do will work at this point in time. I'm used to it, not holding onto any thought as invincible and stable. Maybe it's because if I changed as much as my mind formulates a new "me," nothing in my life could be stable-- friends would leave, etc. etc.

But that's bullshit-- I shouldn't be concerned.

Yeah, talk about a bad case of the negatives.

12Jan/100

“Offensive” KFC Ads

I'm tired of seeing these kinds of things, something needs to be said.

Here's a post from Mashable, with a completely subjective title reporting a KFC ad from Australia on YouTube which is offending some people. My thoughts: you're all idiots. Otherwise? See for yourself: Is This KFC Ad Racist? [VIDEO].

Look. People. I know there are still some in this country who haven't gained any kind of respect for humanity or considered a perspective from someone other than themselves, despite everything the country's gone through over the past half-century. Maybe there are still hard feelings. Maybe it's just another bad case of ignorance. But this is the time-- to get over yourselves. Whether you know this or not, every time you get offended by something, someone else gets power over you. If equality is what you're looking for, stop getting so offended. A word is a word. A stereotype is a stereotype. You are the ones who are giving it meaning, and a negative one at that.

They bring up how a poll was conducted, 27 percent say the ad is racist, 69 say it isn't, blah blah. Yeah, no shit. There will always be people who are so stuck on a negative idea that they could find spaghetti offensive. Business will never win in this field because they have to please the masses. Tough luck to KFC.

The point is what this means to the individual. Half of the women-friends I have don't get offended by the word "cunt." It's a word used regularly in daily conversation and exchanged both ways, in fact. But I also have friends so drawn back by the word that they'll smack me before I can finish the fourth letter. It's a mixed bag and always will be. But you give a word, stereotype, or idea its power by getting offended. Solution? Don't.

18Mar/090

“Jesus Take the Wheel”

Lady, this isn't going to happen. The only way "Jesus" works is if you take the initiative with your life. Deal with it, and if you believe in Jesus, cool; we all need something to motivate us and he is a good way to do that. But don't expect him to simply grab ahold of your life and put you where you want to be. You should be a big girl. And I'm sorry, but this is why people like you need religion. It's not your fault; you just don't know your options. And there's nothing wrong with that-- I'm not criticizing.

I just heard the song on the radio. It kinda threw me on this tangent.

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29Dec/080

Smoking Age and Morals

Apparently nowadays, this is an issue too? While I've been in New Jersey these past few days, I've been enjoying the regular cigarette. Upon depletion of my cigarette pack, I went to my local Wal-Mart, Wawa, and eventually 7-11 to purchase another pack of cigarettes. I was turned down at two of the three locations only to be told I was "too young" to purchase these health-sapping products. My first reaction was, what the fuck?? I'm finally eighteen years of age, a legal adult, and upon travelling 200 miles north in the same country I love, I can't buy a pack of my favorite cigarettes?? Not only this, but the fact that apparently the tobacco-purchasing age in New Jersey has been raised to 19, was complete and utter bullshit in every meaning of the word!

According to Wal-Mart, the age increase was to reduce the availability of cigarettes to minors. What about the availability to legal-frickin-adults?? I was lucky enough to have an employee around my age at a 7-11 who could tell I was 18 and a fricking responsible adult and who would sell me those cigarettes. Yes, I'm with my under-age friends up here, but I'm not buying cigarettes for them! I can sign a contract, I can go to war. I should be able to buy a fucking pack of cigarettes.

And you'd think I wouldn't get so pissed off at this--I live in Virginia, where cigarettes are cheaper and available to legal adults. But it's about the bigger picture. It further reinforces the notion of self-righteous bigots running the country who are either in power to further their personal agenda or trying to win political points with anti-tobacco therefore furthering their own power-hungry agenda. It's a vicious cycle. But it's not only the governer's (in this case) fault, but our society. Generations of adults raising children to not care about when another person's happiness is more important than their own. The one life lesson we are very rarely taught from an early age is that while it is good to be a little self-centered and individualistic, sometimes you reach an ultimatum (whether intentional or not), and have to choose the other person (or in this case, other people) over your own needs and desires. While this is seemingly double-sided (if the governor chooses the people and doesn't get his way, the people do what they want and do get their way), that's why it's a moral and not a law. In a law, one side always wins. In a moral, you use your very own mind to make a decision and be what they call, "human." Having one person (or many) decide what is right and wrong and being able to act upon their beliefs through enforcable laws is simply a conflict of interests; the same reason a separation of church and state is one thing to be happy about in this country (at least in most places).

And being "moral" doesn't mean doing what's best for the general population's health when it involves sapping personal choice because there's that extra human factor: personal choice. When it concerns keeping the general population from getting HIV, for example, not many people are going to want that; and therefore a rigid sex-education program is always a good thing. But it still allows for personal choice and the people who do still wish to risk getting HIV can still go ahead and do so. After all, what is the point of living in a free country without being free to make your own decisions? Especially when you are legally considered an adult. When it doesn't involve destroying other people's lives (e.g. drunk driving), there's no harm in destroying your own health if it is your choice. And although most can't wait until 18 to smoke or star in their next porno, it is, in my opinion, a good age to enforce by law. The drinking age can wait. Obviously it would be nice, but our culture is too irresponsible to lower it at this day and time. Otherwise, leave it up to the responsible parents who aren't idiots and don't have a problem letting their 18-year-olds have a drink with them. While enough people aren't sufficiently responsible to not drunkingly kill people, some are, and that should be enough evidence to allow for a little bit of flexibility in the drinking laws, and health laws in general.