The Future
Now that I'm in college, things have been changing. Mostly old habits, but one thing that will change is my sites. And by that, of course, I mean FlashStuf. It's always been geared at my own age bracket, and a quick demographics report courtesy of quantcast.com confirmed that the teen crowd is really who my site attracts. Well, I think it's about time for a change so I'm starting to, continuing over the next few months/years, move up an age bracket into the "young adult" audience for FlashStuf and out of the teen audience. How I'm going to do that isn't quite obvious after only two days on my own, but that is the direction I'm headed in.
If you are a FlashStuf visitor or have some ideas that could really take us in this direction, just drop a comment.
Life is a bitch ..or is it?
These are possibly my most favorite lyrics of all time. From Daylight by Aesop Rock:
Life's not a bitch, life is a beautiful woman
You only call her a bitch because she won't let you get that pussy
Maybe she didn't feel ya'll shared any similar interests
Or maybe you're just an asshole who couldn't sweet talk the princess
What do these few lines mean? Well that's up to anyone's interpretation but in mine, life is beautiful. The first line says it all. But after that, it's really about how most people blame things on "life" just because they can't have their way. They use it as a justified (in their mind) argument as to why things are going wrong for them and why they just can't be happy (of course it's not them). Which brings me to the last two lines, which says maybe the reason things aren't working out for you is because you can't even be happy with yourself. Or you can't even learn to play along with the situation you're in long enough to even get your way. A bit of stubbornness? And you two not sharing any similar interests is showing that your resistance to any kind of change is causing life to turn its back on you because it simply cannot coincide with your plans or desires.
And if you ask me, that is what life is all about. It's the one thing in your life that you are encompassed in and forced to deal with on a daily basis. However, life differs from your life in that it is static. It doesn't change. It is there, and things happen a certain way, but they simply don't change. It doesn't even matter if you view it as beautiful or not; it's simply a force that, as much as you'd love to, you can't change. But the beauty of being a person and having your life separate from life itself is that yours is dynamic. You have every power to make any kind of change at all in it. And that is why people who blame "life" have no reason to complain about how much of a "bitch" it is. Even though it may be hard to know where to start, everyone has the ability and could have the will to make a change in their life.
Magic
We humans seem to like magic. The unknown. Mysteries. Santa, the tooth fairy; as a child we don't know where the presents they bring come from, but we sure as anything enjoy getting them. And when the day comes where you find out Santa isn't real, Christmas becomes a monotonous present-receiving event. There's no cookies to leave out for mom and dad because, well, they aren't the Santa you had always pictured as a child. Not only that, but you lose the urge to stay up as late as you could to find out just who Santa was. The unknowing is gone, so what's the point of even holding an interest in it?
I realized this a lot today. After my car overheated and my mechanic told me it was my thermostat, I went online to see what exactly this thermostat does for my car and why it might've broke. I read about how it all functions and that if I got one of these little thermostat deals, I could put it in boiling water, and after it warmed up it would just open-- without any apparent cause. I thought that was pretty damn neat, and it made me want to go out and get one so I could test it out for myself! But I read on, and learned that there was simply wax in a cylinder on this thermostat that melts at a certain temperature, expands, and in turn opens up the little valve. A moment later, I had no strong will to go get one to experiment with. It took all the mystery out of it. Although my natural human thirst for knowledge was quenched, I didn't get to figure it out for myself. I didn't get to investigate, or even have it remain a mystery in my head until the time when I could finally test it out on my own.
Knowledge seems to be a double-edged sword. If you lived your whole life believing in God and then were presented the evidence that fully persuaded you he didn't exist, you would have preferred not to have heard it. You'd rather live in a world where, even if you didn't believe in him, there was always a slight chance; a glimmer of hope.
What I'm getting at is that sometimes, in this world that we live in, we need a little ignorance. We need some mystery because it's easier to accept that there's an invisible supreme-being high in the sky than it is to accept the fact that we don't know the origin of our own existence.
However, I think that if we humans have the mental capacity to wonder about our own existence, and have the innate desire to figure and learn on our own, then we have the mental capacity to find an answer to anything in this world. And if we could actually unlock the power in our brains, the other 90% we don't use, we could accomplish those things. But I feel if we didn't have to put so much energy into living in an always-on, money-ruled, stress- and worry-filled society, we'd have that much more power to devote to actually unlocking our God-given (for lack of better words) mental abilities. And who knows, maybe then we wouldn't need a Santa.
Sharks, yes sharks
Our beach house in North Carolina, we noticed on the day we got here, is neighboring the outer banks fishing pier. And today, after a full day of swimming in the Atlantic ocean and a few minutes after we got out, someone turned up with a shark they had caught. An EIGHT FOOT Tiger shark.
I guess I'll be watching for fish hooks this week.
Outer Banks
I'll be heading to the Outer Banks today for the next week, so there won't be any updates to FlashStuf and probably no new posts either until I get back. However, as you might've noticed from my last post, I can make posts from my phone now; so if I come across anything worthwhile, you all shall be the first to know (or, second).
Meaning of Life
Pretend for a second that life doesn't have a meaning. That from birth, you are born into a world, an environment, that has no purpose. If you were to assign a meaning to life at this point, it would simply be to exist. And you could probably live off of that for a good 12 years or so. But around that time, you need something more fulfilling. Life just isn't as simple anymore.
You start searching. Some people find that religion gives them a purpose; a goal above all else that is, generally, to be good and in turn have a happy afterlife. Some people have been brought up to already "know" what their purpose is, such as becoming a football star or keeping up the family tradition of being train conductors. Then, seemingly the biggest group of people, assimilate into the ones around them who haven't found a thing, or might not even know they should/could be looking for one. And these people may handle it differently, whether it's drugs or dressing in black and finding solace in themselves and others who feel the same way. The point is that many people handle this differently but share a common cause: the search for a purpose. This would seem to support the idea that there is no "meaning" or purpose to life and that, in fact, it has to be discovered.
And I think that's what life is all about. We as humans need a purpose to keep us motivated to survive in this world, and although there might not be a purpose from birth, with the right knowledge you can make your purpose and, in turn, give your life a meaning.
Long time no see
Well, relatively long. If there was one thing that has been consuming my free time in the past few weeks or so, it'd be Futurama. I recently, er-- discovered --all 72 episodes so I've been spending what time I don't spend interacting with the outside world, watching Futurama.
But otherwise I've been gathering some much-needed energy to finally finish the next major release of my Easy Site Package. I'm aiming to have it done by mid-August, but if not it'll be September at the latest.
As for FlashStuf, I went wild on it today, fixing up the broken registration form (no new users for two months?-- OH!) and making a fully mobile version of FlashStuf Profiles, with a few fixes to the desktop site. However, I'm making yet another (hopefully the last) blog for FlashStuf.com and the development I do on it. It'll also be open to contributors, for the one day that we finally decide to expand. Anyways, it will be at blog.flashstuf.com, hopefully soon (once the subdomain finally clears-- I think 1and1 is having problems today).
